drunk dialing...

so last night was crazy.

how did things get so out of hand? i don't even know. okay maybe the word is "alcohol." omg. i totally called becca and ranted at her. i was so pissed by hearing from like the 5th person that i quote unquote "professed my love for her" on new years eve.

i so did not profess my love. i told her two things that night. that one: when she did my tarot reading once in the summer and i had pulled really good cards that i had thought of her as my question and two: when she asked me if liked her, i agreed and said, "yes you attractive to me, yes." but then i went on all about paula!!! cause that's who i love. whatever.

so when megan i was talking to megan last night and she told me that rebecca said that i had "professed my love" i freaked out. i walked right out of vibe and got on the phone and just cussed the fuck out of her message machine. i truly sounded insane i'm sure. gads. but i was so sick of hearing that nonsense that i "professed my love" that is such bullshit.

she makes it sound like i got down on one knee or something. puhleeze. so i called her everything terrible in the book. i feel really stupid about it, but i can't take it back now. it's out there. jeeze. how did i let her get to me?!?!?!? i'm more pissed about her not paying money back than the loss of our friendship. but still i feel really bad that i called her everything evil. but maybe she will stop spreading that story that i professed my love. gads.

she is fucking unbelievable. i called linzoid and she was her usual helpful self and i love her to pieces. she was like whatev it's okay. whew. :) cause i know reba is gonna go around with that fucking phone and let everyone listen to my drunken cuss out fest. lol. i went alec baldwin on that bitch. oops. lol.

oh well what can you do when someone pushes you to the fucken limit of your patience.
i only wish i had been as clear as alec...
but i think i got to the names much faster and without any clarity....



in other news i got that trainer girl to like me, and dance with me :) haha i told her she need to upgrade her gf when she said i looked like her girl. she said maybe she should and smiled at me. then she grabbed me on the dance floor. she didn't let me kiss her, but i left her there when i walked my friend stephanie out. lol. said goodbye and went and hung out with celeste and dre. :)

we were crazy at homme! dollar drinks and kela. lol. then it was vibe and i totally dissed that fake ass mikaela kay. she noticed. haha good. i'm sick of people treating me like jerks just because i'm nice. i'm not letting people get away with their crap anymore and treating me like a doormat. :P why can't people just realize your worth when you're nice. i hate being mean but mean gets u respected for some stupid reason.